Craig had a horrible day today and so did I. He was so out of it that I got quizzed multiple times when I got there this morning about what happened to him and what "they" were doing to him. It only got worse from there. He went bat sh!t crazy on us early afternoon and was screaming about being electrocuted and trying to rip off his heart monitor electrodes, as well as other lines, oxygen saturation monitor and his hospital gown and trying to get out of bed. He even got to the point where he wouldn't respond to or recognize me, had unintelligible speech and what little I could understand made no sense, and he kept trying to get out of bed. Finally got him to.calm down and then they gave him some Ativan (sedative). He had another mini episode a few hours later like previous that didn't last as long or get so bad. We had to change his bed linens and reposition him later this afternoon, early evening because he had lost control of his bladder and was about to fall off bed from trying to get out earlier. It was awful, he was screaming every time we touched him anywhere. Finally got that done. His blood pressure was sky high after so he got meds for that and pain meds. Finally recognized me and calmed down, still not making sense, but at least i could understand him, finally falling into a peaceful sleep, so I came home to.take care of pugs and kitties, and me about 12 hours after I left this morning. They turned on the alarm on the bed so they'd know if he tried to get up. Not allowed to stay overnight. I am so stressed. I have disc disease in my back, as well as arthritis in my hips, severe in my knees and these daily long walks to get to and from his hospital room, plus helping nuses control him since he does better and responds better to commands and directions from me are killing me emotionally and causing severe pain physically.