Yesterday the government confirmed we will be going into a new lockdown starting thursday. Lockdown measures will be announced on wednesday. While a new lockdown is absolutely necessary I am naturally anxious about what will come. My first lockdown in March was not too bad, on one hand because I genuinely enjoy spending time at home and didn't have any issues keeping myself busy, on the other hand because I was sure the pandemic would end in the Summer so it would be just a couple months of sacrifice and we'd be done. I'm a lot more anxious about a second lockdown. Like many people I know, we're starting to get a bit desperate that we're in the second year of the pandemic and it just keeps getting worst. My living situation is also different: I moved into a new place I don't like and I don't enjoy my house as much. Back in March I had friends who lived next door and I could walk to their street and they'd come to their balcony and we'd chat a bit; I don't know anyone in my neighborhood now. I have a lot of work right now; I usually work late couple days a week but whenever I have things planned after work (my dance class, dinner with boyfriend) I close my laptop and I go; now that there's nowhere to go I will need a different discipline to keep myself from working day and night, but I feel I'll probably want to work long hours just to keep myself distracted, which isn't necessarily a health way to deal with the extra free time. I also have a boyfriend now, and I'd like to spend time with him.
On top of that I'm a bit afraid that I'll be spending my birthday in lockdown for the second year in a row. I know I shouldn't be worried about that since my birthday is only in March, but I'm not seeing any of this improving soon. Vaccination is continuing here in Portugal but I should only be getting the vaccine later in the year, and I seriously doubt that in March there'll be enough people vaccinated to allow us to resume a bit of normalcy.
All things considered I'm very fortunate that I don't know anyone who got Covid or lost their job during the pandemic, I'm definitely luckier than most, but naturally I'm not at all excited about what's coming in the near future.